11 May 1980
And if any of his equally cowardly lackeys want to take that up with me, you know where I am.
Happy birthday to me. Ninety-six. Who'd have thought when I was running around Europe like a lunatic after Gellert that'd I'd live past thirty, let alone make it to four years shy of one hundred. I'm not sure what to make of it myself.
So many regrets. Far too many regrets and not just the obvious ones that revolve around Ariana. Regrets about my life and the way I've lived it. I've been too much alone but damned if I know how to change it now. I think Father would be disappointed that the Dumbledore line will die with Albus and me. Not that Albus was ever likely to continue it but I could have. It's not as though I never had my chances. I wonder what kind of father I would have been.
How are you, lad? I've seen your mother here and there. Can I assume the two of you have moved?
I understand from Edgar that you've agreed to learn Occlumency. I think the first question I should ask is have you had any previous training or done any reading on the subject?
The second question is what times would be most convenient for training and do you have any preferences as to where?
Oh bugger it. I'm tired of beating around the bush
Alright there, lad? How's your friend Regulus? Recovering well?
Well, that wasn't as bad as it could have been. Whoever did the research didn't look beyond the obvious. Good. Too many damned skeletons in the Dumbledore closet to want anyone to start digging around. Bad enough that they brought up Father's foolishness.
No, that's unfair. It was foolish but I wanted to do the same damn thing, I just couldn't leave Ariana at the time. Father's pureblood roots just got the better of him. And of course we couldn't tell anyone the reason why he did it. We would have lost Ariana. They would have taken her to St Mungos and locked her away. She wouldn't have lasted a year in there. It would have been like locking up a bird.
Though I keep wondering if perhap they could have helped her. Could she have been helped? Should we have taken that risk?
Stop it. Rehashing this ground is never good for you. Leave it be.
Checking in, lad. My business is done and I am home. Thank you for your help.
Not a bad Christmas. Would have been a hell of a lot worse if Marcus and the rest hadn't turned up. Probably would have brooded and drank too much. Still drank too much but at least it was while having fun. I still managed to spend some time at Ariana's grave and told her what I've been up to since the last time I spoke to her. Not much really but she always liked to know what I'd been doing.
I miss her all the time but even more so at Christmas. She loved Christmas so much. It wasn't the decorations or even the presents so much as having the family there and everyone just having fun. I guess that's why I make the effort to go up and spend some time with Albus at Christmas. I managed to repress the urge to punch him in the nose again this year. Always a good thing.
Thank you for the cookies, my dears. They were very much appreciated and very delicious.
As much as I hate to be the bearer of bad news, there sounds like there is a pack of dogs raging around outside in Hogsmeade and given the circumstances I suspect they're not dogs.
We appear to have a slight werewolf problem in Hogsmeade. Find somewhere safe if you're anywhere nearby. Use apparition please.
